The majestic.

©VaishnaviAmbatipudi
Inspired by Pinterest

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Days passing in seconds

the uncertainty daunting me every night

when I reflect upon my thunderstorms

because not all end in rainbows and sunshine,

some could destroy a village,

Contradict that positivity preached by many

So, tell me, am I wrong?

if I sleep in hope of waking to my dreams

when I outrun my capabilities as I attempt to reach

that light awaiting at the end of this dark tunnel

Is that a light or a mirage that I see?

Help, my thoughts are blurring my vision!

and still here I am willing to do anything

just to make it to that oasis of my dreams

This may only be a phase like many say

the uncertainty yet, daunts me…..

my demons of fear

I was young- unaware and perplexed

the time when I first confronted you

It was all amiss and haywire,

Unexpected, I saw you out of the blue

Little did I know of your intentions

as you devoured my soul and left me alone,

consuming all the air inside my lungs,

ripping all the skin from off my bones

The times you were gone,

I was apprehensive at your mere thought

petrified as I awaited our next encounter

my nights were sleepless, days distraught

I’ve tried to push you away

making it only easier for you to get closer

I realise now you’re just a part of me

for I have finally surrendered

Shades and contrast.

First try at realistic art.

Let me know what you think 🙂

Art of doodling.

Structuring your doodles the right way can bring out an artistic masterpiece.

The cleverness in turning a simple sketch or drawing into something that looks complex and beautiful is an art in itself. This has always amused me.

You don’t need to empty your wallets to purchase expensive paints, pastels or brushes. All you need is a paper and pen/pencil to create a simple yet alluring piece.

This is a piece I drew using a simple black gel pen (available at any stationery store) inspired by my favourite, Pinterest!

I encourage my readers to try this out, it’s therapeutic and peaceful and will help calm your agony and anxiety during this difficult period.

You don’t need to be a skillful professional to try this, an amateur like you and me can easily perfect the art of doodling!

Happiness?

Happiness?

Is that why

I have sleepless nights,

yearning to have a mirthful tomorrow

I choose the path of difficulty

in desperation to attain my bliss

without any assurance of my reward

Should I try to deprive it off another?

for my longing for ecstasy consumes me

I might as well breach the rules

if that would bring me my utopia, my remedy

I search for it in a friend/ partner

wondering will they fulfil my desire?

When will I find my paradise?

I think to myself

as my quest for tranquility continues to transpire

I ponder and pray

for days to years

to be completely forsaken of my despair

to override all my fears

to reach the ultimate serenity

Until, the day arrives

when I lay lying on the floor breathing my last

I see a divine entity, an angel perhaps

She approaches towards me and says

“Alas! you’ve gotten what you want”

I look at her confused

I did not want to die?

I wanted to live,

For, my surge for happiness remained incomplete

But soon I realise what she meant

as I watch her take me to nirvana, my eternal peace,

for what I fantasised since forever

and withered my entire life,

which I could’ve mend

If only I knew,

happiness is the journey, not the end.

One day, I will finally break free.

Prayers and desires,

awaiting for what I seek

struggling to retain that hope and faith

perhaps I can live the life I dream

for one day, I will finally break free

Find my purpose, my path

figure out my eternal bliss

fathom what I solicit

reaching for the horizon that lies at infinity

for one day, I will finally break free

escape this recusant cage

let go of that adverse toxicity

pursue my love and passion

yet upholding that confidence and dignity

for one day, I will finally break free

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The dark side.

We are all like the bright moon, we all have a dark side. – Anonymous

Another one of my sketches. Hope you like it 🙂

The fearless.

It’s not over when you lose, it’s over when you quit. – Anonymous

I’ve always loved wolves and dogs. They are the most loyal, fearless and intelligent creatures and so I like to call this painting I did a while ago, The Fearless.

It’s okay not to be okay.

false laugh, lost hope

the world trying to be at its harshest

defeated faith and belief

wondering the worth of it all

but pain only lasts, giving up doesn’t.

Anxiety coming for you on and on

but fighting, making you better each time

lows that may be awfully steep

but always finding that staircase to climb back up

falling down is easy, staying there easier

but what is life really? if not a rollercoaster

fetching you through those highs and lows

though, always making it to destiny

what is life really? if not for that thrill

sometimes so tough, closer to giving up

but don’t you know life isn’t mainstream

so,

you don’t need to be perfect everyday,

it’s okay not to be okay.

The past few posts of mine are focused more on mental health since September is suicide prevention month. My only aim is to help at least a few of you out there who are witnessing similar troubles and struggles. Stay positive!

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